Final Halloween

It was my final Halloween at The Agency. It really brought up some odd emotions. It's bitter sweet; exciting and thrilling but at the same time it makes me sad to know that I've spent 5 1/2 years in this place. Sometimes I'm angry that I gave them so much to be terminated when they were done with me. Sometimes it makes me feel good to know i spent 5 1/2 years listening to the people who have become my friends, laughed with them and enjoyed the good times and the bad and even crying over the stress and the heartache that is The Agency.
It's amazing to me how much I've changed in that time. I always knew they would have to give me the boot to get me to leave no matter what I was put through. I've been through a fiance, 2 boyfriends, the death of 4 loved ones. Looking back on it, I cannot believe I've lost and gained so much in 5 years. I've been here during so many important times in my life. It will be odd not to have it be part of me, to not come to work excited or needing to talk to my friends. Some of my friends at the Agency will be my friends for the rest of my life. Some I may never see again. But for 5 years it was my life. It was life lived. A lot of strong bonds and good came with a lot of bad.
It's not quite time to say goodbye just yet. 2 more weeks. That's all that's left. I think I will enjoy the time I have and consider myself lucky that I get to go to work for the next two weeks with some of my dearest friends.

Besides... Who could be sad after spending a day surrounded by such sweet faces :o)

Happy Halloween Everyone
~Z~

Field of Weeds

Originally posted by Sorriso Bella Sometimes something unwanted can be beautiful. This photo came out like a dream. I can feel the breeze on my face, smell the sweet summer grasses and can hear the buzz of the bugs. Ah Summer is almost here!

a dream...

Blue lake

Originally uploaded by
dazstudios

I used to like to lie on the grass as a child on a warm spring day and watch the puffy clouds. Sometimes I would fall asleep with the warmth of the sun on my face and have dreams of the cloud ship pirates sailing across the sea of blue and white have adventures untold. Once, i woke up to an darkly overcast sky and a strong wind. I was disoriented and a little frightened until I realized that even though the world is a bit darker than it was when I fell asleep it was still the same world with my family and friends and stuffed animals. This picture reminds me of that day and that even though the world can suddenly seem darker, that the things that I love still exist.

~z~

Sous la pluie et par temps gris

Sous la pluie et par temps gris, Château de Chamarande, Chamarande, France 2008
Originally uploaded by Baloulumix

*Under the rain and in gray weather, Castle of Chamarande, Chamarande, France 2008*

when i first saw this photo on black it jumped out at me. The touch of yellow moss on formerly golden locks, the light shades of the dirt on the stone hinting at the blush of a cheek, adds to the effect of this photo. The stone face of a sad, almost pouting child. Color makes it seem as if it once was a living child that has faded as time fades, becoming slowly a petrified marker of life and its beauty. It is hypnotizing to me with its far away look of sadness and perhaps longing. beautiful photo.

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